Always Thinking: November 2010

Monday, November 29, 2010

For You

Just because I'm 7 feet long

100lbs of muscles

doesn't mean I can do it alone

doesn't mean I don't have weaknesses

doesn't mean I don't need you

I may be a solitary animal

but for you I can make an exception

because of you I don't have to be alone

because of you I feel loved

because of you I am strong

The friend, the supporter, the care giver

You are loving and always there for me

You made me who I am

You made me grow

You made me live

Sunday, November 28, 2010

Winter without you

Without you I'm so cold

Winter...

Winter with out you,

Is so so cold,

I shiver without your warm embrace,

I long for that feeling you give me,

Winter with out you is a cold one.

I Wish you could be around more,

Your warm arms wrapped tightly around my freezing body....

Come and warm my body <3

Friday, November 26, 2010

Those cold winter days you spend inside curled up with a cup of hot chocolate watching some tv or reading a book. The lovely nights spent with your family and that flickering flame's warm and the warm gooey roasted marshmallow.... <3

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Happy Thanksgiving!

http://mayo.personcounty.net/Wildlife%20Page/Wild%20Turkey%20Page.htm

So, today is Thanksgiving. Turkey, ham, rolls, green bean casserole, mashed potatoes, gravy, cranberries, sweet potatoes, candied yams, and soo much more you can find on the tables of many American families, but there are some people who are as lucky... some people that walk the streets and smell the amazing dinner they don't have. The homeless. Where do they go for Thanksgiving? I'm sure not all can go to a church or homeless shelter for dinner. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wPP_jhfjoTE&p=22391048E253B998 Makes you think... You should be great full for what you have got. Family, life, friends, happiness, whatever you do have you should be thank full for it.

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Days like this...

So my goal here is to post everyday. To get people to maybe read this. This blog being sort of my thoughts and stuff going on in my head... Well today I felt powerful. I felt sexy. I don't remember getting any compliments but I felt good about myself. Yet... I wasn't being myself. I don't typically wear make-up its a once in a while thing I do because I have extra time in the morning or I just have a hair up my ass... Jeans, Cowgirl boots, button-up typical outfit, yet why such feelings today?
I came home, my boy called then I went driving. I felt confident for the most part about my driving, then came home and went for a "run" yet it was TOO COLD! (I hate cold weather!) So I came inside and was proud of myself for getting on the tread mill. So I showered. Sat in my room and blew bubbles. Ate dinner that my brother so kindly cooked (burgers and fries) Yumm and then so very sweetly prepared on my plate all I could do was ketchup and mustard. Then kicked youngest off the TV (P.s. He is ALWAYS watching tv.) and sat and watched Vampire Diaries. Then my mom gave me some trail mix she had made and it was salty nuts, yet sweet chocolates, and tasty Jelly Bellys, swirls of flavor as I lay sprawled out on the couch. Whole couch to myself no one but me in the room for the most part.
Laying there. I felt like a princess. All clean. Feel so beautiful. Feel so loved. So spoiled. <3

I wish that everyday...
I could feel like a Princess
I could feel beautiful
Spoiled
&
Loved
<3

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Relationship

Relationships are like boiling a pot of water.

You don't want your relationship to be cold, you want a warm loving relationship. Yet sometimes the heat gets turned up, and fights start, like any normal relationship, and the water begins to boil and you are scared, and you worry! you worry and worry and worry the water will over flow, you'll be missing what you need and the relationship will end in a heat, you'll never be able to look at your loved one the same. and you'd cry. cry yourself to sleep, yet go through the next day like nothing is wrong you pretend, you wear that mask, and when the night comes. you cry, you cry thinking about how amazing he was. then the time would come again and you would walk around like nothing ever happened. You'd walk by him and he would seem like nothing is wrong and it kills you to see all you had disappear, little did you know he is dying inside. Dying of the pain. He wants you. He still loves you! Now if only one of you could drop your pride and love (in the open) again.

It's not good to put on a front, to cover your emotions, to bottle them up for later. If you simply share and then you don't have to cry. you can fix it. If you put your all in something it's your 100% and your love puts his 100% that's 200%! That's enough to make it through anything.

7.1.10 - Sideways 8

Monday, November 22, 2010

Run run run run run!

Running is so many things! I love running. Running takes my mind off of everything its relaxes me, and after the run the long stretches afterwards are so peaceful and even more relaxing. I touch my toes and breathe... In... Out... In... Out... I close my eyes and breathe In... Out... In... Out... Slowly stand up and reach for the sky eyes remain closed so relaxed and at peace... *Brothers pour in the house* *Dogs begin their chorus of barking and howling* Oh, well peaceful blog over haha time to go run! :)

Sunday, November 21, 2010

Him... 11/21/10

He is going back or maybe has never left his doggie dog ways...

I found out...11/21/10

How could you? I found out about it. Now what? "if my gf saw this shed be pissed" yeah not really, just hurt. Hurt to think you would do that. I told you that I don't like the idea of leaving you and I didn't lie, I cry thinking about it... like right now. But I need to do what's best for me and right now baby after all you have done I am hurt to the max. My pain jar is tippy top full I don't think I can handle you hurting me again. I just don't think I can do it.... I have given more than enough chances to you.
I LOVE YOU!
I really do. But there is a difference from IN LOVE and loving someone.

Here it is... This is what I found...

Between Rose and You

D November 19 at 5:22pm

Mommy said I can get my tattoo if dad says yes and shell take me to get it!

Rose November 19 at 5:23pm Report

Awesome, of my face right?