Breaking up

A guy just sent his girl a text saying "it's over, i never want to kiss you" then no response so like 2 min. he called her "Did you get my text?" no "Go read it" **he hangs up**
Calls back
"I don't even want to be friends, the only reason i went out with you is because you are ugly and i felt bad for you"
She was crying
she hung up
He is trying to call her again
The other day he was talking about how he was playin her and how ugly she is

Just curious but how does a guy do that? Esp. you are only 14. That is soo rude and horrible... I am in awe i have no idea what to say

In Love

The way you make me feel

my heart races like I'm on the good stuff

my tummy flutters like no other

you just don't understand

you make me feel better than anyone has ever

you make me feel things I have never felt

baby, If I ever had to describe what being in love felt like

I'd describe it as how you make me feel.

In love.

Disgusted with the world

What's wrong with people you know someone is taken yet you flirt mad hard? What's worse is when the other person flirts back! You know who I'm talk about, BTW your girlfriend knows (or she will when she reads her messages). If you love someone stay loyal. If you don't why are you even in a relationship? The world makes me sick... people stealing from the Salvation Army? Abusing Animals & People. Wow. People can be so slimy and such scumbags! No picture for this.... why? Because i don't need to be reminded on how sick the world is. I'm sure this isn't what god intended for the world. :'( The world is so sick it makes me sick. Sick to the stomach, so sick i want to puke!

Broken Bottles

Sometimes you just have to let it out

just cry

don't bottle it up

bottles build up and break

let it all out

it's better for little stuff

to not build up

just don't let anyone see you

and your weaknesses

Carpe Diem or Amitte diem?

If you don't wanna be caught, don't do it.

If you don't mean it, don't say it.

Live life everyday to the fullest, but remember

Someone is always watching you.

Someone is up there, watching you

Some say it's an angel or God

And they are looking after you

but sometimes I think they are laughing

Laughing because they know all

and we are so ignorant

because they know what everyone is thinking

they know the lies

they know the truth

Live everyday like someone is watching?

What a baby

What a loser

Live life to the fullest

Kiss strangers

Dance to the music in your head

Have fun

Wear clothes that don't match

because you don't give a f*ck about what others think

Do whatever you want

It could be illegal tomorrow

Love like there is no tomorrow

Don't be afraid to do want you want

Live like there is no tomorrow

for all you know...

There might not be

How much would you do?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tFny8iYc9L8

What would you do for love? Would you change what people know you for? By changing are you showing how much you love someone? If you quit something for love doesn't that just mean the other doesn't love you for you? Well if you change wouldn't that be the new you? Change happens even when you aren't in love with someone. Would you tell all of your darkest secrets? Would you leave your friends? Would you die like Romeo & Juliet? 

What would you do for that next kiss?
. . . . . . .
Would you kill?

You can change for good. Say someone you love hurt you over and over would you stay with them? If you do isn't that like suicide? Why would you hurt yourself? There is someone out there that will treat you good, though you may think that the one you love is the only one for you. It's possible to find a new love. Shutting that one door will open other doors, better doors. A new fresh you from changing, for love, for loving yourself.

Would you commit suicide? Like Romeo or Juliet?

Where you belong

So winter makes me write mushy poems sorta...It's cold and the season for cuddling! <3

Where you belong...next to me

Next to me, I feel your warmth

Next to me, is where you belong

Next to me, I feel your touch

Next to me, I feel your love

Next to me, I am tempted by your lips

Next to me, I want your kiss

Now that you have left, I feel this cold

Now that you have left, you aren't where you belong

Now that you have left, I miss your touch

Now that you have left, I need your love

Now that you have left, I want your lips

Now that you have left, I miss your kiss

Now that you have left, I'm lost with out you

Now that you have left, feel free to come back

Where have you gone?... I need you,
Please do come back to me love.

Did ya- BoA

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5sP5xTOFJcQ

Why would you wait. Why would you do that? If you truly love someone you avoid stepping on their toes. When someone asks you to do something.... When you need to be the best you can be why don't you try? It just shows that You never know what you have till its gone...

Goals

     My goal, post on this blog everyday and try to get someone I don't know interested. Someone to follow me... Goal FAILED >.< I can't seem to do it everyday, I said every other day... Why do I keep lowering my standards? I know I can do better. I just don't try. I told myself that I would stop picking at acne, fail. I told myself I would never cry over a boy, I have. It is stupid. I told myself I wouldn't let it happen again, but I did. I didn't say no, I said I would but no, I'm not strong enough to with hold the temptations. I told myself I'd leave it, I never did. I think about all of this and feel like a big FAIL.
     When I was little I could just fly through stuff, I understood it. Now I have gotten so used to not trying I am in trouble, for A's to C's... Even an E. I am not used to trying and I just don't. I need someone to ride me about it. Even better I need a friend to help me through it. Someone I can trust with everything...

The Little Things

Little things, like how you spin me around when we are holding hands.

Little things, like how you remember the little things.

Little things, like how you hold the door open.

Little things, like how you play with my hair.

Little things, like how you hold my hand.

Little things, like the kisses in the hall.

Little things, like how you look at me.

Little things, like how you hug me.

Little things, like when you smile.

Little things, like how I love you,

and all the little things you do.

Half full or half empty?

Don't you love how you know something is highly unlikely to happen, yet that .1% chance it could happen makes you scared. You worry. You step on the wrong step and it cracks the pressure is applied and the situation can take no more. The pot just boils over, makes a mess. How is it you know for the most part it won't happen yet you are scared? You think about it and you cry at the thought, the possibility, the slightest chance...
What happens with A you isn't going to be like B and you, B is a different person, different personality, better person yet you are scared. You are scared to lose what you have, you are attached. It's like getting a new puppy, you fall in love and that pup becomes part of you, inseparable. and when the puppy goes on, weather it has passed or ran away. You cry. You were attached. You loved it.
Should you take chances? Carpe Diem. Or be reserved have no life, shelter yourself.
Whatever you do people say positive is better. Stay positive the glass is half full. Well, sometimes it doesn't work. I have told myself, oh it will get better. Oh it's just a little spill, and guess what. I lied to myself somethings just got worse. Yes some got better but that's not the point. The point is that the times it didn't get better, it just did damage. Well sorry to say that glass is half empty, but it is. Don't lie to yourself. Don't be stupid.

Phone calls from you

I love those late night phone calls.

5 Months with you.

5 Months... 22 Weeks... 154 Days... 3696 Hours... 221,760 Minutes... 13,305,600 Seconds

(Is my math right? Haha I hope so!)

I want to grow old with you, and be one of those cute old couples holding hands.

Happy 5 months hun!

I love you.

For You

Just because I'm 7 feet long

100lbs of muscles

doesn't mean I can do it alone

doesn't mean I don't have weaknesses

doesn't mean I don't need you

I may be a solitary animal

but for you I can make an exception

because of you I don't have to be alone

because of you I feel loved

because of you I am strong

The friend, the supporter, the care giver

You are loving and always there for me

You made me who I am

You made me grow

You made me live

Winter without you

Without you I'm so cold

Winter...

Winter with out you,

Is so so cold,

I shiver without your warm embrace,

I long for that feeling you give me,

Winter with out you is a cold one.

I Wish you could be around more,

Your warm arms wrapped tightly around my freezing body....

Come and warm my body <3

Mmm... Winter nights

Those cold winter days you spend inside curled up with a cup of hot chocolate watching some tv or reading a book. The lovely nights spent with your family and that flickering flame's warm and the warm gooey roasted marshmallow.... <3 

Happy Thanksgiving!

http://mayo.personcounty.net/Wildlife%20Page/Wild%20Turkey%20Page.htm

So, today is Thanksgiving. Turkey, ham, rolls, green bean casserole, mashed potatoes, gravy, cranberries, sweet potatoes, candied yams, and soo much more you can find on the tables of many American families, but there are some people who are as lucky... some people that walk the streets and smell the amazing dinner they don't have. The homeless. Where do they go for Thanksgiving? I'm sure not all can go to a church or homeless shelter for dinner. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wPP_jhfjoTE&p=22391048E253B998  Makes you think... You should be great full for what you have got. Family, life, friends, happiness, whatever you do have you should be thank full for it.

Days like this...

So my goal here is to post everyday. To get people to maybe read this. This blog being sort of my thoughts and stuff going on in my head... Well today I felt powerful. I felt sexy. I don't remember getting any compliments but I felt good about myself. Yet... I wasn't being myself. I don't typically wear make-up its a once in a while thing I do because I have extra time in the morning or I just have a hair up my ass... Jeans, Cowgirl boots, button-up typical outfit, yet why such feelings today?
I came home, my boy called then I went driving. I felt confident for the most part about my driving, then came home and went for a "run" yet it was TOO COLD! (I hate cold weather!) So I came inside and was proud of myself for getting on the tread mill. So I showered. Sat in my room and blew bubbles. Ate dinner that my brother so kindly cooked (burgers and fries) Yumm and then so very sweetly prepared on my plate all I could do was ketchup and mustard. Then kicked youngest off the TV (P.s. He is ALWAYS watching tv.) and sat and watched Vampire Diaries. Then my mom gave me some trail mix she had made and it was salty nuts, yet sweet chocolates, and tasty Jelly Bellys, swirls of flavor as I lay sprawled out on the couch. Whole couch to myself no one but me in the room for the most part.
Laying there. I felt like a princess. All clean. Feel so beautiful. Feel so loved. So spoiled. <3

I wish that everyday...
I could feel like a Princess
I could feel beautiful
Spoiled
&
Loved
<3

Relationship

Relationships are like boiling a pot of water.

You don't want your relationship to be cold, you want a warm loving relationship. Yet sometimes the heat gets turned up, and fights start, like any normal relationship, and the water begins to boil and you are scared, and you worry! you worry and worry and worry the water will over flow, you'll be missing what you need and the relationship will end in a heat, you'll never be able to look at your loved one the same. and you'd cry. cry yourself to sleep, yet go through the next day like nothing is wrong you pretend, you wear that mask, and when the night comes. you cry, you cry thinking about how amazing he was. then the time would come again and you would walk around like nothing ever happened. You'd walk by him and he would seem like nothing is wrong and it kills you to see all you had disappear, little did you know he is dying inside. Dying of the pain. He wants you. He still loves you! Now if only one of you could drop your pride and love (in the open) again. 

     It's not good to put on a front, to cover your emotions, to bottle them up for later. If you simply share and then you don't have to cry. you can fix it. If you put your all in something it's your 100% and your love puts his 100% that's 200%! That's enough to make it through anything.

7.1.10 - Sideways 8

Run run run run run!

     Running is so many things! I love running. Running takes my mind off of everything its relaxes me, and after the run the long stretches afterwards are so peaceful and even more relaxing. I touch my toes and breathe... In... Out... In... Out... I close my eyes and breathe In... Out... In... Out... Slowly stand up and reach for the sky eyes remain closed so relaxed and at peace... *Brothers pour in the house* *Dogs begin their chorus of barking and howling* Oh, well peaceful blog over haha time to go run! :)

Him... 11/21/10

He is going back or maybe has never left his doggie dog ways...

I found out...11/21/10

How could you? I found out about it. Now what? "if my gf saw this shed be pissed" yeah not really, just hurt. Hurt to think you would do that. I told you that I don't like the idea of leaving you and I didn't lie, I cry thinking about it... like right now. But I need to do what's best for me and right now baby after all you have done I am hurt to the max. My pain jar is tippy top full I don't think I can handle you hurting me again. I just don't think I can do it.... I have given more than enough chances to you.
I LOVE YOU! 
I really do. But there is a difference from IN LOVE and loving someone.

Here it is... This is what I found...

Between  Rose and You

D November 19 at 5:22pm

Mommy said I can get my tattoo if dad says yes and shell take me to get it!

Rose November 19 at 5:23pm Report

Awesome, of my face right?

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D November 19 at 5:24pm

Yupp on my ass jkjk it's gonna be on my left peck saying love is worth fighting for

Rose November 19 at 5:26pm Report

Hahaha! Nice

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D November 19 at 5:27pm

Yupp yup it's for Xmas for my gf

Rose November 19 at 5:27pm Report

Aw!

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D November 19 at 5:28pm

And anyone else I love ;)

Rose November 19 at 5:29pm Report

Me!

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D November 19 at 5:29pm

Si!

Rose November 19 at 5:31pm Report

Ha

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D November 19 at 5:32pm

How are you?

Rose November 19 at 5:33pm Report

G R E A T AS EVER

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D November 19 at 5:33pm

Why is that?

Rose November 19 at 5:34pm Report

I HAVE AN AWESOME NEW BFF. A couple actually

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D November 19 at 5:35pm

Like me?

Rose November 19 at 5:35pm Report

Um, not really. Haha.

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D November 19 at 5:37pm

Whatdya mean? :(

Rose November 19 at 5:38pm Report

Uh, nothing

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D November 19 at 5:39pm

:'( sad face

Rose November 19 at 5:40pm Report

You are my friend/brother. Not my best friend

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D November 19 at 5:46pm

Oh. . .

Rose November 19 at 5:48pm Report

But your the bestest brother!

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D November 19 at 5:49pm

I'm kinda your only brother

Rose November 19 at 5:50pm Report

No. I have 2 real brothers

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D November 19 at 5:51pm

Oh I didn't know that

Rose November 19 at 5:52pm Report

Haha. Cee and Lee. Cee lives with my dad in nc

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D November 19 at 5:54pm

Oh and the other one?

Rose November 19 at 5:55pm Report

Lee is actually my cousin. But my parents have custody. His dad, my uncle, passed away.

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D November 19 at 5:57pm

Awwh I'm sorry.

Rose November 19 at 5:58pm Report

Yeah, it was terrible. He was 22

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D November 19 at 6:00pm

That's young. So out of all you bros I'm your favorite?

Rose November 19 at 6:01pm Report

D U H. ♥

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D November 19 at 6:03pm

What about all the guys you like...am I you fav?

Rose November 19 at 6:03pm Report

Uh, i dunno.

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D November 19 at 6:06pm

Damn how many pol do you like?

D November 19 at 6:06pm

Pppl*

Rose November 19 at 6:06pm Report

Like 3. :)

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D November 19 at 6:07pm

Ahh I got major competition?

Rose November 19 at 6:07pm Report

Hmm, yeah.

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D November 19 at 6:10pm

You must like them a lot?

Rose November 19 at 6:10pm Report

Well one of them

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D November 19 at 6:11pm

Who?

Rose November 19 at 6:12pm Report

Uh, this guy jay.

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D November 19 at 6:13pm

I'll beat him up jkjk good luck hun

Rose November 19 at 6:14pm Report

Haha, he isnt single, :P

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D November 19 at 6:16pm

Uh oh... I am. :/

Rose November 19 at 6:16pm Report

You are?

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D November 19 at 6:18pm

No but sometimes I wish haha

Rose November 19 at 6:18pm Report

Why?

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D November 19 at 6:20pm

Cuz I don't feel free which is good I guess no smoking or drinking. No flirting which is what makes me me

Rose November 19 at 6:21pm Report

Well yeah! But thats good

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D November 19 at 6:24pm

But I like flirting

Rose November 19 at 6:24pm Report

I dunno!

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D November 19 at 6:25pm

And I really like you

Rose November 19 at 6:26pm Report

But you love sammi!

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D November 19 at 6:27pm

I do. If I wasn't with her and I asked you out what would you say

Rose November 19 at 6:28pm Report

Hmm i dun no

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D November 19 at 6:29pm

You mean yes right

Rose November 19 at 6:29pm Report

Yeah.

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D November 19 at 6:31pm

Really?

Rose November 19 at 6:31pm Report

Probably

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D November 19 at 6:33pm

Time fir me to get single jkjk. If my gf saw this she would be pissed maybe I should be a good bf and stop flirting before she dumps me

Reply:

I feel bad for snooping in your messages but then again I'm not. Why would you even talk like that?
I know what I should do D. I don't want to do it either... I love you D. </3 Mine is broken...