That Guy

So, I totally passed out... I can't remember when.... Don't remember why I wasn't really tired... I wasn't running from anything to the best of my knowledge... I was happy... I had just talked to this boy... I should totally tell you a little about this guy huh?... Well, he is alot to put in words... He is well. gosh where do I start?! He means alot to me... he is a sweet guy, one of those guys to get the door for you, one of tho... POEM ;)

That Guy <3

My baby is one of those guys you dream about,

One of those Guys you see in movies

Who will do anything to make the girl happy

Stop addictions

Drop bad habits

Be completely honest and,

tell you any wrong he did.

No matter how bad it is.

No matter how guilty he feels.

No matter what the consequences may be.

He tells her.

He changes what he is best known for,

to be with that special girl

One of those Guys who gives their hoodie to a complete stranger

Simply because she looks cold

When she denies it, he insists

He is bold

Kisses that same stranger...Without realizing it was her

He asks for her number

"Can I call you?"

They talk all night, till 5am.

The next day, "Can I call you again tonight?"

Of course!

Talk all night, again.

She doesn't date those she doesn't really know

He does everything, tries everything to see her

 Beach? Movies? 

Movies, worked out

He opens all the doors & holds them

Afterwards he asked her to be his

She shrugs her shoulders, she wanted to say yes

She wanted to since before the movies

but she plays around alot

His face showed sadness

like oh my gosh, this girl

she...after all of the late nig...

**Taps him**

**Thumbs up & A Smile**

July 1, 2010

I was His.

He was mine.

That's how it has been.

No matter what comes our way,

we can make it.

Yeah, He is that Guy.

My Guy.

I could go on for quite some time..but it's like 11....thinking about him keeps me awake all night, I am in love with a boy. He knows who he is, and baby if you read this... I LOVE YOU! <3

Summer I miss you!

Beach, Warmth, Sunny, Happy, Bikini's, Pools, No School, Hang out with friend.... Summer hurry up! I have the want to go swimming!! :) I wanna hang out at the beach with some friends, where's that warm weather when I want it? I miss my bikini!!  I wanna put on my bikini, some baby oil, meet some friends at the beach, get a tan, enjoy the warm sun beating on my skin, get a sexy tan, wear shorts and tank tops, flip flops, stay at friends places, stay up late, lay by the pool and tan some more....ahh summer where art thou summer? :)

Sick, sick as a dog

Blah, sickness strikes again. I'm on fire. I'm sweating like crazy. I moan and groan trying to get comfortable. I lift my blankets up, they feel so heavy. I'm tangled up. I feel so weak. I finally break free. I feel the breeze come in. Feels so nice. I throw my blankets off, and it's to cold. Pull them back on. Sleep. Wake up. Moan. Groan. Cry. Whine. Sick. Sleep. Wake up. Same thing over and over. Rolling, tossing turning, moaning, groaning. Trying to get comfortable, but nothing works. My body aches all over. It hurts just to swallow my spit. I wish, I wish there was a magic pill, a magic pill to make this pain go away. Make me not feel. Make me sleep. Sleep for a long time. Wake up refreshed. Like a new person. Happy. Never feeling better. Feeling joyful and as high as a kite. Clear my mind. Take me under your arm and take away this hurt.

Drunks

Alcohol does such horrible things to people, drinking regularly, getting wasted, it tears stuff up. You may think it's cool now, but when you are grown and an alcoholic and not doing what you should. You yell at your kids, bitch at them, then you're never there for them. You scare your child's friend off, how do you feel seeing your baby cry. You're ruining your baby's life. You're just embarrassing them. I have promised myself after seeing life go through its path that I am not going to marry a drunk, my kids will have the best dad, one that will take them to the park, one that can drive them to their friends house instead of being to drunk to get behind the wheel, or even walk a straight line for that matter... My kids will have an amazing father who spends time with them and I will have an amazing husband who loves me <3

Facebook Status

Just as I thought...It was too long...Too much on my mind...

"Didn't feel good today, missed school, missed my boy, wanted a kiss today, slept all day, sore all over, not in a good mood, didn't get to work out...SO Tomorrow is a new day. Put in double the workout to make up for lost time, try to be in a better mood, wake up to an alarm(MAYBE if i dont stay up to late)...try reading Hamlet? Studying spanish, following the road to being a better person? I think this might be to long for a status! I might have to blog it... SPEAKING of Blogging...I haven't done that in a while! I should get busy and stop laying around like some lazy fatty that doesnt workout and just eats and sleeps and eats and sleeps..."

Life at the moment...over a year... It doesn't matter...It still sucks...

     So last night was pretty crazy... I had zip tied my baby gate shut. Well first off i have a baby gate to prevent the 4 dogs from coming into my room. WELL back to the story, I zip tied it shut because i'm sick and tired of these people that live with us constantly leaving my gate shut the wrong way. They have lived here since March and should know by now how to shut my gate, buuuttt noooooo. I don't care if you have to let your dog out okay? I don't want dogs in my room now you move into my room with your dog and don't respect my shit. It's not like I go upstairs and mess with your shit okay? So if you mess with mine put it back the way you found it, and stop being RUDE!...Well after zip tying the gate shut I had a dream among many and you came home and bitched me out, and I told you to talk to your sons cause I know it wasn't you who left the gate that way, well you do sometimes and it pisses me off. I told you to just take your dog out the door in my room because it's not like you don't use that door, it's not like my room doesn't have any damn AC or heating. SO RUDE! Then you got an attitude with me... Your youngest son calls me cunt, bitch. AND he has called me and asshole for not putting a towel in the laundry room, when I wasn't even heading that way, so chill.
     The next dream I had I don't know who the guy is. BUT I was hanging out, we went to lunch and hung out. During the day he had gotten on one knee but I hadn't noticed & we were holding hands and I just kept walking and dragged him and he got up. Then I mentioned my boyfriend and how it would have been so cool if he could have been with us. Then the guy said "Ohh... well I guess it's to late for this..." I asked "To late for what?" "Well..." *he reaches his hand in his pocket and pulls out a velvety creme colored box (just like the one my bf got me with a ring in it)...he opens the box to reveal a silver ring that had a silver heart on it.* I asked if I could try it on and it fit my ring finger, my left one. I wanted to know what size it was so I asked the guy and he said it was a 5.5....DREAM OVER
     So, today my phone has been really quite... In order to distract myself I watch movies well...every time my phone goes off I get excited! and I look and it's just him...but not the right HIM...not my him....Well I think in order to make myself happier the phone will be put on silence and put in my room... Not such a good mood today...ESP. since I have been home all day and my family & the family living with us has been under my skin for quite a while...it starts to get old after almost a year.