If you blog it, I might see it. <3

I can't fucking sleep when I am crying.
IT HURTS!
PLEASE STOP!
:'(
I hate saying it but,
Leave.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gm7y5BjJcwU

I can't sleep i'm thinking of him....

Is he up?
I shouldn't care. >.<
I need to get him out of my, head.
He wonders why I keep busy.
It's so I have no done time to think of him.
But went I lay to sleep..
I can't...

I've taken your number out of my phone
but
then I put it back
"Do Not Answer The Phone"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-GVosqlARoA&feature=BFp&list=WL8B1440E4EB2CF2D8&index=1

I'm gonna be okay

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AnMP1oqPTto&NR=1

You told me to stop talking to you, honestly it the best thing for us.

I can’t take the pain of being your friend when you love me so.

YOU said lets stop talking, you agreed to it and you told me I was making you cave.

I’m strong, we decided not to talk, so I will not cave.

I want you to know, it is killing me on the inside,

not talking to you and knowing you are hurting.

I want to be there for you but you seem to hurt me.

When you don’t talk to me,

for the most part I’m fine, until something reminds me of you,

but I just tell myself, “I’m strong, I don’t need him.

He can’t handle just friends, he wants more.

He wants me to be his because He loves me.”

but baby if you loved me,

if you cared about how I feel,

how i’ve cried myself to sleep the past two nights,

how much you make me hurt as you beg on your knees,

begging for me to talk to you.

If you really cared, really loved me,

you would leave me alone,

after all you were the one to say YOU couldn’t handle the pain

the pain I caused you.

Well get off your knees, it’s pathetic,

I love you, and you are probably hurting your knees on that cold, hard gravel,

Get up, dust off, and love again.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KrB5pUCV-qI

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fRgp1QqOWl4

All I seem to do here, is reblog from tumblr...

If he even checks up on me anymore...

This is for you.

I love you.

I do.

But please.

PLEASE.

Stop texting me.

Stop calling me.

We can't be friends,

I've tried, 

and all you do is fall

fall for me again...

or maybe you never got up

get up and dust yourself off please.

I can't take it anymore

I'm going to break

Leave me alone

I'm so so sorry, but

it has to be this way.

and just so you know.

It worked.

That text you sent me;

"I might have erased your texts,

but I will never forget what you wrote.

I might have unfriended you,

but I will never forget your pictures.

We might have stopped talking,

but I will never forget your voice.

We might have ignored each other,

but I will never forget your face.

We might have stopped hugging,

but I will never forget your smell.

Everything we did,

I will never forget. :/ "

I cried, while reading it,

as I was driving, with my grandmother.

I read it out loud.

Lump in my throat the size of a peach

as 3 tears trickle down my face.

One for the good times we had,

one for the bad times we've been through,

and the last is that, I hope i'm strong enough

Strong enough to stand up,

be happy, and find someone to call mine.

Then maybe when we are both happy in a relationship

NOT with Each other

Only then might we try to be friends once more.

How will we know if the other is in a relationship, and happy you ask?

We don't.

The phone... Rings... It's you.

I hold it in my hands,

Buzzzzz, buzzzzz, buzzzz,

until it stops ringing

you leave a voicemail

saying you're sorry for everything

you miss me

and you love me

I cried my eyes out.

Thanks.

I'm sick to my stomach.

I feel like I'm doing the wrong thing,

ignoring you, kicking you out of my life

but honestly when you leave me alone,

I'm happy.

You cross my mind from time to time,

but in the end I think, I'm better off without.

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This was for my other blog, but I'm tired of hiding my feelings, so if you find this you do. If you don't, well i guess you dont. You'll find my other blog very easily... I've been quite careless, 

I can't stop thinking...
about him...
I don't want to talk to him
because there will be issues
but I do
I do want to talk to him
I love him,
not the same way he does me
but I do
I do
I do,
I love him.
BUT
friends, family, and head all agree
leave the boy alone,
don't speak to him
NO contact...
however my heart...
Is like a stupid dog
wanting to run towards danger
trying to chase a car
but my head, my logic
is like the owner,
holding the dogs leash
trying so hard to protect
who doesn't know they need protected.