If he even checks up on me anymore...

This is for you.

I love you.

I do.

But please.

PLEASE.

Stop texting me.

Stop calling me.

We can't be friends,

I've tried, 

and all you do is fall

fall for me again...

or maybe you never got up

get up and dust yourself off please.

I can't take it anymore

I'm going to break

Leave me alone

I'm so so sorry, but

it has to be this way.

and just so you know.

It worked.

That text you sent me;

"I might have erased your texts,

but I will never forget what you wrote.

I might have unfriended you,

but I will never forget your pictures.

We might have stopped talking,

but I will never forget your voice.

We might have ignored each other,

but I will never forget your face.

We might have stopped hugging,

but I will never forget your smell.

Everything we did,

I will never forget. :/ "

I cried, while reading it,

as I was driving, with my grandmother.

I read it out loud.

Lump in my throat the size of a peach

as 3 tears trickle down my face.

One for the good times we had,

one for the bad times we've been through,

and the last is that, I hope i'm strong enough

Strong enough to stand up,

be happy, and find someone to call mine.

Then maybe when we are both happy in a relationship

NOT with Each other

Only then might we try to be friends once more.

How will we know if the other is in a relationship, and happy you ask?

We don't.

The phone... Rings... It's you.

I hold it in my hands,

Buzzzzz, buzzzzz, buzzzz,

until it stops ringing

you leave a voicemail

saying you're sorry for everything

you miss me

and you love me

I cried my eyes out.

Thanks.

I'm sick to my stomach.

I feel like I'm doing the wrong thing,

ignoring you, kicking you out of my life

but honestly when you leave me alone,

I'm happy.

You cross my mind from time to time,

but in the end I think, I'm better off without.

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This was for my other blog, but I'm tired of hiding my feelings, so if you find this you do. If you don't, well i guess you dont. You'll find my other blog very easily... I've been quite careless,