September 19th 2010 3:44pm-8:04pm with some phone calls

Of course i will be i may be PISSED OFF and HURT as that tree i stabbed about a million times, but i love you, AND Reeeeeeaaally dont wanna leave you... ever

Okay im glad and were still gonna stay together right

we are together at the moment yes.

And your not gonna leave me because of this?

I honestly don't know.

-_- im sorry

I know this.

I LOVE YOU!

you dont wanna leave me then dont.

I didnt wanna leave (Ex-boyfriend 1). and i met you. i thought you were the bee's knees

Whats (Ex-boyfriend 1) gotta do with this

For all i know i could leave you and find someone and think there the bee's knees. It wasnt about him but about the situation

Oh okay thanks for comparing me to him.

I wanted you to see how i am looking at this

Well cheat on me and ill see

I cant. i love you. and i dont want to cheat on you.

Babe just tell me are you thinking about leaving me?

yes im thinking about it. and why would i punish myself by leaving you? it would hurt me to leave you i dont want to

Then please dont im begging you.
ill do anything

Babe i cant live without you and just the thought of you leaving me makes me wanna hurt myself

(HIS NAME) Do not hurt yourself

Baby i will do ANYTHING to keep you what must i do to make you know that i wont do it again. I told you cuz i felt bad and i dont want to do it again. Ill prove it by not talking to any female at all anymore except fam. Your the only girl i need in my life.

(His name) thats unhealthy. talk to people.

I will just not females

Talk to all of your friend just control yourself

Ill only talk to two girls...you and dee

And shes gay so you have nothing to worry about

(His name). dont ignore your friends.

They arent real friends dee is my only real friend and sometimes i even doubt her

.... (His name). please dont.

Well i already deleteall female non fam conacts from my fone.

babe please just stay with me. I love you!

please?

You dont want babies i can get nutered so youll know i wont have sex ever again.

What's to say you won't do it again?! I am not leaving you today or tomorrow I'm not thinking about making it a plan.

Ill get nutered thats what.

I love you too. dont neuter yourself or stop talking to girls

Stay with me?

(His name). I am not punishing myself by leaving you.

Thank you baby.

i am so sorry!

so sorry that my eyes are all cried out

... i still dont know what to say to you. i just dont wanna stop talking to you.

Damn there isnt anything i can do is there.
the only thing i can do is give you my life huh?

how would you give me your life? (His name). I love you im not going anywhere.

Jump off a building or something

(His name). please do NOT hurt yourself. that will only hurt me more.

How else can i make this better then?

Be there for me, dont do it again. just control yourself?

Okay

(His name). I love you.

(My name) im so sorry and i love you too!

... i wanna ask you something... things...

Okay and i promise to answer them honestly

What would you do if she got pregnant or her rents figure out? What on earth did you guys do? right there on the couch or something?

Well if she got preg. Unfortuantely id have to be there for the baby and she wasnt a virgin so i doubt theyd find out and what we did was sex and yes on the couch. Thats the main reason dad is mad cuz it was with my younger sister in the room

... just wow. hun.

Baby you dont know how horrible i feel.
i just feel like taking a dart and cutting my legs...
then you wont be able to see it.

(His name). Please dont

I want to thats how depressed the guilt is making me i wanna stab my arm till the blood drips off my fingers

(HIS NAME) I SWEAR TO GOD IF YOU HURT YOURSELF I WILL BE REALLY MAD!

I wont i just want to thats how guilty i feel and if you dont see that i will show you.

dont hurt yourself.

Well if its the only way i can show you how guilty i feel then so be it.

(HIS NAME) DO NOT DO IT! >.<

Well do you know how bad i feel

I will never but i know that you feel really bad. i will never feel what you feel.

Baby im sorry and i know after last night you probally doubt me saying this but i love you with all my heart. I love you so much and you know that and i just hope your not doubting that any. Every word i say to you i mean. When i tell you i regret doing it i mean it and not just because it sucked. But because it was wrong. I will never think with my penis ever again. Ill think with my brain and heart. You mean more then the world to me and i dont wanna lose you ever. I love you and i hope you forgive me soon. And i hope everything goes back to normal soon. Im sorry and i hope you believe me cuz i dont wanna make you mad by hurtng myself and im not going to but just know i love you and im so so very super sorry.

I know you are sorry and i know any person in their right mind would break up with you in a heartbeat. but as my key chain says im insane ^__^ I am not gonna leave you but beware ima make you NEVER FORGET this EVER! 

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I look at this and I can see you on your knees begging me not to go. I can see the tricks you play, the way you twist and toy with my emotions. Can't you see it know? Look back. Now that our minds our clean, we've moved on, we have new significant others. and I am 100% over you, I don't want you back, I do cry thinking about you, but its not you i'm crying for, its how happy I was, all the fun I had, the good times, and how they are history. I don't cry over you. I cry over my lost source of happy, it's simply like milk. You were amazing for me, then went sour. I don't regret anything.