Do I have to title this?

This lump in my throat grows bigger and bigger. I had this feeling today, it was weird I didn't wanna talk to you. I wanted to be with you. I thought " I don't wanna ruin my good mood " I end up crying. I can't do it. All I do is hurt you. That's not how this is supposed to be. I CANT DO THIS! It hurts so much. I can do this. I don't want to... I can't even finish this blog. I wont be able to sleep tonight knowing he is hurting. I probably won't be hungry for a while... Whatever. Bye my dear blog... Aka, Diary for the public <3